<凤求凰>

七月
我为了生活而继续挤着地铁，为了挤地铁而继续活着。

七月
我买了一支狮王“晶盐”牙膏，味道又苦又咸，每一个早上都仿佛呛了满嘴的海水。

七月
我穿了一次衬衣皮鞋（似乎是近10年来头一次）。
为了能早些攒够旅费，去了朋友推荐的公司面试。
衬衣皮鞋是跟朋友借的，衣服挺合身，皮鞋较大，穿上最厚的袜子才不至于走路时会掉下来。
朋友善意地安慰：“别的时候掉没关系，只要去面试进别人办公室门的时候不掉下来就行”
那天早上，换好了这身行头，我站在镜子前， 反复端详着陌生的自己，难过得wanna cry.

想起了"Queen"的"sombody to love"里那个努力活着却不断倒霉的男人。
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me...

后来

面试通过，决定却在面试前已做好！
地铁路过建国门的时候，从反光玻璃里看着穿衬衣的自己。
我小声对着他说：“钱多也罢，体面也罢，五花马，千金裘，富贵如云烟，统统都滚吧，
我只要做回这样的我！

 嘿嘿，，嘿嘿嘿，爽了，自己偷着乐了片刻。
然后...我的衬衣生涯就这此夭折！

七月
北京比往年多了些雨水，印度的雨季也已经到了。
我的印度老板有天工作的时候回头告诉我，在印度有很多人喜欢和中国茶。
接着举了个例子。
一次他回印度遇到个的中年妇女。

“你看我象多大年纪” 妇人问老板（汗...看来这是全世界妇女共同喜爱的一个问题）

“30岁左右吧”  老板出于礼貌，假装思索一下答道

“其实我都45岁了”（老板立即做惊讶状）妇人一脸陶醉的笑容

接着说“你知道为什么吗？因为我一直喝中国茶”

......

老板一脸认真地告诉我“其实她看起来就是45岁的样子，我当时完全是出于礼貌”

七月
26日是我两个好朋友的生日。同年同月同日生,互相不认识.
一个是高中的他，一个是大学的她。

她生于7月26日，
我大学时好友的女朋友。那时候，日子简单，快乐也很简单。
炎热夏天，我们一起听音乐喝可乐，就是一个个惬意的下午。
好友是个桀骜不驯的人。在他和她一起的日子里，他却出乎我们意料地
变成了一个温柔的男人。这转变甚至到今天仍鼓舞着我要对爱情怀有信念。
相爱的日子总是美好的，不论时间的长短。一小时的幸福胜过一百年的乏味生活。

02年11月10日，那个深秋，好友通过网络告诉我，因爲胃癌，她永遠地离开了......
遥远的她，是个单纯而平凡的姑娘。
十年或许二十年以后，也许不会有人再提起她的名字，更不会有人再去探询她生前的往事。
那些属于她自己的爱与哀愁也将随着她永远年轻的身体深埋在那片永远年轻的土地里.

记忆模糊了我最后见到她的情景.
只记得最后一次我们在一起听的歌是“白衣飘飘的年代”，
她说她最喜欢的一句歌词是“冬等不到春，春等不到秋，等不到白首...”

"你沉默倾听着那一声驼铃
象一封古早的信
你转过了身深锁上了门
再无人相问"

七月
我有一个饭友，她从非洲回来,我们每次见面除了吃饭从不干别的。尽管如此，我还是很高兴，
因为我常听到有人抱怨，在很想找人吃饭的时候却总是找不到最合适的那个。
我们因为非洲而认识，因为吃饭而开始熟悉。
我送过她老挝的弹弓，她送过我塞内加尔的项链。
我们中谁不想自己吃饭的时候，就互相轮流请客。
饭友比我有钱，总会请我去稍微贵一点的馆子。
打肿脸充胖子的事我做不来，在这里向我的饭友表示谢意。
饭友这周日又要去非洲了，自己吃饭的日子里我打算帮你多点一个菜！

七月
二十五日早晨的阳光照在脸上，我涌起一阵莫名的感动。
太阳的光经过漫长的道路来到这颗小小行星，用其一端温暖我的眼皮。
原来,宇宙运行规律并未忽略我微不足道的眼皮。

人生的问题有时候可以归结为一杯咖啡带来的温暖 !

　 ——特蕾莎修女之默祷

Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.
Mother Teresa

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.
Mother Teresa

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.
Mother Teresa

Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.
Mother Teresa

Each one of them is Jesus in disguise.
Mother Teresa

Everybody today seems to be in such a terrible rush, anxious for greater developments and greater riches and so on, so that children have very little time for their parents. Parents have very little time for each other, and in the home begins the disruption of peace of the world.
Mother Teresa

Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.
Mother Teresa

Good works are links that form a chain of love.
Mother Teresa

I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world.
Mother Teresa

I do not pray for success, I ask for faithfulness.
Mother Teresa

I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.
Mother Teresa

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa

I think I'm more difficult than critical.
Mother Teresa

I try to give to the poor people for love what the rich could get for money. No, I wouldn't touch a leper for a thousand pounds; yet I willingly cure him for the love of God.
Mother Teresa

I want you to be concerned about your next door neighbor. Do you know your next door neighbor?
Mother Teresa

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.
Mother Teresa

If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it.
Mother Teresa

If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one.
Mother Teresa

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
Mother Teresa

If you want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it.
Mother Teresa

In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.
Mother Teresa

Intense love does not measure, it just gives.
Mother Teresa

It is a kingly act to assist the fallen.
Mother Teresa

It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish.
Mother Teresa

It is easy to love the people far away. It is not always easy to love those close to us. It is easier to give a cup of rice to relieve hunger than to relieve the loneliness and pain of someone unloved in our own home. Bring love into your home for this is where our love for each other must start.
Mother Teresa

It is impossible to walk rapidly and be unhappy.
Mother Teresa

It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters.
Mother Teresa

Jesus said love one another. He didn't say love the whole world.
Mother Teresa

Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.
Mother Teresa

Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.
Mother Teresa

Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.
Mother Teresa

Let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. Money will come if we seek first the Kingdom of God - the rest will be given.
Mother Teresa

Let us not be satisfied with just giving money. Money is not enough, money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them. So, spread your love everywhere you go.
Mother Teresa

Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to do the humble work.
Mother Teresa

Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.
Mother Teresa

Loneliness is the most terrible poverty.
Mother Teresa

Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do... but how much love we put in that action.
Mother Teresa

Love begins by taking care of the closest ones - the ones at home.
Mother Teresa

Love is a fruit in season at all times, and within reach of every hand.
Mother Teresa

Many people mistake our work for our vocation. Our vocation is the love of Jesus.
Mother Teresa

One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody.
Mother Teresa

Our life of poverty is as necessary as the work itself. Only in heaven will we see how much we owe to the poor for helping us to love God better because of them.
Mother Teresa

Peace begins with a smile.
Mother Teresa

So many signatures for such a small heart.
Mother Teresa

Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.
Mother Teresa

Sweetest Lord, make me appreciative of the dignity of my high vocation, and its many responsibilities. Never permit me to disgrace it by giving way to coldness, unkindness, or impatience.
Mother Teresa

The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted.
Mother Teresa

The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill her own child, what is left for me to kill you and you to kill me? There is nothing between.
Mother Teresa

The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread.
Mother Teresa

The miracle is not that we do this work, but that we are happy to do it.
Mother Teresa

The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved.
Mother Teresa

The success of love is in the loving - it is not in the result of loving. Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person, but whether it turns out that way or not does not determine the value of what we have done.
Mother Teresa

There are no great things, only small things with great love. Happy are those.
Mother Teresa

There is always the danger that we may just do the work for the sake of the work. This is where the respect and the love and the devotion come in - that we do it to God, to Christ, and that's why we try to do it as beautifully as possible.
Mother Teresa

There is more hunger in the world for love and appreciation in this world than for bread.
Mother Teresa

There must be a reason why some people can afford to live well. They must have worked for it. I only feel angry when I see waste. When I see people throwing away things that we could use.
Mother Teresa

There should be less talk; a preaching point is not a meeting point. What do you do then? Take a broom and clean someone's house. That says enough.
Mother Teresa

We are all pencils in the hand of God.
Mother Teresa

We can do no great things, only small things with great love.
Mother Teresa

We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls.
Mother Teresa

We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop.
Mother Teresa

We shall never know all the good that a simple smile can do.
Mother Teresa

We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty.
Mother Teresa

We, the unwilling,led by the unknowing,are doing the impossible for the ungrateful. We have done so much,for so long,with so little,we are now qualified to do anything with nothing.
Mother Teresa

Words which do not give the light of Christ increase the darkness.
Mother Teresa